just keep swimming

[phinnia]

Still more depressed/maudlin than baseline. Stupid Paxil. down to 5mg daily; in two weeks it'll be 5mg/every other day, and then it'll be GONE FROM MY LIFE and I should really have a party.

(note: this experience with paxil is by no means a reason for others not to take antidepressants. i was seriously overdosed, but I'm mostly better now and on other more appropriate antidepressants. i believe in better living through chemistry. Me not on meds is not something anyone should experience. i'm still ashamed/embarassed by things i did without them even though i was seriously not thinking straight. this is a public service announcement from me. I'll be justifying quite a few things these days, because frankly this is really difficult*. sorry for the inconvenience.)

Don't know if I want to go to lecture tonight. Have babysitter anyway; will decide at last minute. (hate dealing with this particular babysitter as i never know if i'm getting through to her. oh well.)

clickies:

From the continually awesome bishojo_kitsune: surgeons use twitter in operating room.

From the forever excellent mactavish, a few: arkansas and five other states ban atheists from public service. ... do they not REALIZE this is discrimination? i mean, it's completely obvious to anyone with half a brain, but large numbers of politicians don't fall into that category, sadly enough.

And also The Long View. Pictures of Christchurch, NZ and Antarctica. (i can stop any time, i'm not obsessed) (much) (okay, i'm lying, i am, but it's not like it's cocaine).

One from my girl machineplay dancing wheelchair. No, really, it's very cool, you should watch the video.

* read: very difficult means 'oh god this is hell. i will be justifying everything, which is very irrational and yet i do it anyway.

Comments

[hannahrorlove.livejournal.com]

I had a physical allergic reaction to Paxil - terrible rash all over my chest. Another one of my friends was on Paxil for a few months when she needed some help getting stability in her life. I guess it all depends.

Don't worry. It's not an obsession, just a fixation.

[phinnia.livejournal.com]

it used to work for me for a long time, and then i got overdosed (equivalent of 100mg/day due to an idiot attending) and it ended up this way. i'll be SO glad when it's gone.