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can't trust that day
Oct. 20th, 2008 01:09 pmPhoned local voc rehab office about potential funding for school. It's becoming more and more apparent that a lot of things would be easier if I was also working (credit repair, eventual purchase of house or condominium, potential trust fund for Sean's care later in life so I'm not eighty-five and running after him and break a hip, those trips I keep wanting to take, etc. etc) and my current skillset is getting me nothing at all. Plus this program at Shoreline has just little enough math that I can manage it, (stats != math, IMO) plus some hardcore nifty things (class in recombinant DNA, for example) and the college is on the bus route near where we'll be moving.
Hate going through government systems but cannot get financial aid. Dreading seminar for this (next Tuesday) but will go. Worry that body is going to fall apart even more. Nothing ventured, nothing gained and all that hip-happy bullshit.
Random twitching has moved to shoulder also. How weird. Will ask main doctor about that + why I can't kneel without screaming in pain tomorrow. Bah.
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thewlisian_afer:
man arrested for sex with car wash vacuum.
burglar leaves flowers, apology to victim.
worker finds upside down gravestones paving walkway. (that's pretty neat, imo.)
I keep almost falling asleep and then scaring mysef awake.
Great. Denied really awesome apartment due to bad credit despite us telling manager 'hey, our credit sucks but we'll pay a bigger deposit and we have decent income' and manager saying 'don't worry about your credit, that's not all we look at'. Hate unreliable people that make those kinds of statements. Hate everything, especially myself for doing nothing helpful and just crying uncontrollably. Today is basically shot. *gives up*
If I didn't already have a babysitter coming that I couldn't cancel I'd just go back to bed and not bother, period. I'm tempted to anyway. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
Hate going through government systems but cannot get financial aid. Dreading seminar for this (next Tuesday) but will go. Worry that body is going to fall apart even more. Nothing ventured, nothing gained and all that hip-happy bullshit.
Random twitching has moved to shoulder also. How weird. Will ask main doctor about that + why I can't kneel without screaming in pain tomorrow. Bah.
Clickies today are all courtesy of the super-fantastic
thewlisian_afer:man arrested for sex with car wash vacuum.
burglar leaves flowers, apology to victim.
worker finds upside down gravestones paving walkway. (that's pretty neat, imo.)
I keep almost falling asleep and then scaring mysef awake.
Great. Denied really awesome apartment due to bad credit despite us telling manager 'hey, our credit sucks but we'll pay a bigger deposit and we have decent income' and manager saying 'don't worry about your credit, that's not all we look at'. Hate unreliable people that make those kinds of statements. Hate everything, especially myself for doing nothing helpful and just crying uncontrollably. Today is basically shot. *gives up*
If I didn't already have a babysitter coming that I couldn't cancel I'd just go back to bed and not bother, period. I'm tempted to anyway. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
