look at me still talking when there's science to do

Again, a really good day. as much as this 'insisting on getting off internet and to bed by/at 10pm feels kind of annoying socially, i'm getting much better sleep and am able to get up earlier, so it's a definite win in the end. I have no plans for the day, which is even better! I'm hoping to actually write. i have a FABULOUS koan in mind for the monastery AU (i have a few saved up but this one is PERFECT and needs to be done SOON) so if you're into the monks you may look forward to that. and there's another awesome fic in the pipeline. and hopefully some original stuff too (that is to be given some attention today).

Annoying thing that might end up being good: they all of a sudden (like, this morning) changed Sean's bus route so that he was dropped off about 20 minutes earlier. This freaked me out, largely because (a) i have things set up appointments-wise that relied on that time being 20 minutes later (and that makes a LOT of difference for those types of things and more coming due to new therapists), (2) i hate hate hate getting no notice for things and (iii) i have things set up a certain way with the old driver accomodationswise.

Calls have been put in with the director of transportation and he is meant to be getting back to us by the end of the day. Because they can't bring the kids to the door except at the end of the route (and me waiting outside for him = problem) they will put him at the end of the route again. may not be today due to trickle-through the pipeline but will definitely be by the end of the week. s'good (esp. since that may be later in the day - he adores bus rides so that's awesome for him too.)

(Also i need to complain about the Assholes today. Will do that soon before i get to doing things).

argh. i cannot stand these 'entrepeneurs' and 'media enthusiasts' and all that that keep adding me on twitter (i darenot say it on twitter because that just leads to more of them). dear people of twitter - if you have added me through a random keyword search i probably don't want anything to do with you.

regarding this teabag thing: i think that standard practice for all buzzwords and media compaigns should be running any possible adwords through a class of fifteen year olds. if they think it's funny, then you should find something else.

clickies today are from bernie_laraemie, gizmometer, mactavish and topaz_eyes.

eNature has TONS of nature guides, including a new version of Sibley's Guide to Birds that's fully online (including birdcalls)!

kutner_love is having a kutnerfest! (i know most of the mods are on my list and i love you all but the first person i saw this from was Topaz. <3 It looks excellent and i'm definitely entering. There are tons of categories <3

for seattle locals: capitol hill's top blossoms apparently this weekend is going to be nice. we may take seaners to cal anderson park on sunday if anyone wants to hang out there with us? not sure what time but we're flexible other than it needs to be over by about 2 because i have an mri late sunday afternoon <3

scots church volunteer is online singing sensation

cheese nips SCRABBLE edition! so much win.

5 cm fir tree removed from patient's lung. OMGWTF!?!

robber gets stuck in shop window

russian city to rename all soviet streets to christmas streets.

dolphins join fight against somali pirates in gulf of aden SO COOL!!

stephen colbert gets consolation prize from nasa he didn't get his name on the space station; but they named a treadmill after him. <3

Seaners got some tea tree oil on his hands today. there was a bit spilled (several drops) and we could smell it all the way in the back. that stuff is STRONG.

i hope you all are having a great day.

Just two clickies today: infecting mosquitoes before they infect us and vampire unearthed in Venice plague grave.

I also managed to find a new buddhist parable in my travels, so there will likely be a reappearance of the monks in the near future.

cancelled the therapist in Everett. I'm going to try and get in touch with bork's therapist - and neurologist too.

today is so far better than yesterday. although yesterday i caught up on all the House eps I'd missed. the season shaped up much less terrifying than i originally thought. (i kind of stopped watching since episode six. yes, i know. i am neurotic. i think that's apparent by now.) i am attempting to remain spoiler free to stop my neurotic little brain from chewing on things. just saying so there's no spoiler talk in the comments, okay? we (or many of us) remember last season/early this season when i was neurotically freaking out about House and Wilson never being friends again? And late last season when I was freaking out all through the amber arc and had to quadruple my anti-anxiety meds? i do not do well with stress. it's much better if I don't think about it beforehand. i'll still worry, but slightly less.

anyway, enough about my neuroses.

because i haven't obsessed about antarctica for the past few days:

yesterday's antarctica pic of the day. One of the excellent things about antarctica is that there are some places nearby that don't have snow at all. Deception Island has hot springs, as a matter of fact.

from the 'penguins rock' files: penguins tobogganing and penguins porpoising. (i actually thought that last one was orcas for a few seconds.

local people: anyone up for an ikea trip at some point this weekend? will pay gas money and eternal gratitude. i have to pick up a couple of dressers. (i can order them by phone/online and have them shipped if need be, so it's not a big thing if no one's free; i thought i'd ask anyway to save on shipping, etc.)

oh, also: how much (ballpark figure) is a smallish tattoo (assume maybe 2, 2.5 inches square, fairly simple: a plum blossom. (top right picture, stylized a bit.) and where's a good place to get it done? (as in, tattoo places.) I'm thinking about my left forearm unless someone gives me a compelling reason to put it elsewhere.

today's clickies brought to you by bernie_laraemie, euclase and nihilistech, all of whom are fantastic friends of mine. <3

race to save 200 whales and dolphins after mass stranding on Tasmanian beach. this makes me sad but i'm happy that they're being cared for.

fifty strange buildings of the world. these are SO AMAZING, eeee!

oldest sample of weapons-grade plutonium found on beach. eee, again!

today: must call oral surgeon after he gets back from lunch. pondering going out but not sure where. i want to try out wheelchair in museum setting but as i recall they're frequently closed on Mondays. trying to write for purimgifts and somewhat failing on that front. vacuum hose is clogged again, damnit. aughfrustrating. pain today is about a four maybe five. better than yesterday and the day before i suppose. i know, isn't my life so exciting? you wish you were me, i know.

I'm so happy that the sun is coming up earlier. i have so much more energy this time of year.

i'm tempted to write a 'missing scene' fic in the merchant of venice where portia and nerissa are getting dressed as boys, but I'm getting stuck about it. possibly due to nervousness about iambic pentameter. also realize i do not have any physical copies of shakespeare's plays. (to me it matters. I like to hold the book in my hand. I can work with ebooks but they're not always my preferred medium. hm. maybe smallish trip to used book place is in order? yes, i think so. it's a nice day.

it's like one of those coloring pages. (i have the original if anyone wants to play) (so does Jane, of course, but I forget where she put it)

(it's supposed to be one of those wacky sunset ties that you buy in Honululu. I don't know whether I should have to point that out or not. my mspaint skills are not so great. <3)

i love you jane!

new study shows warming trends in antarctica. This makes me sad. I love Antarctica beyond all reason - it's an obsession of mine - and it provided source material for my favorite house/wilson friendship fic ever: extreme weather. (it's my pet. if i do remix this year, this would be the safe story. it makes me sad that it's not more popular, because i know it's much better than some things I've written. Bah. oh fandom, thou art a fickle mistress.)

From one of my dearest internet children, cueballex: anatomically correct model of the human brain - made of wool. You can even unzip it and see the two hemispheres. It's AMAZING.

Also, for Jeeves and Wooster fans:



Sound required, vision optional, worksafe. SO AMAZING. This is a middle school orchestra.

Reason I am proud of myself today: i had breakfast before noon, and I did the vacuuming and unloaded the groceries. Now I will rest, and later unload the dishwasher if I feel up to it.

I've started to taper off on my antispasticity meds; I can feel it helping. I'm still wrapping and assembling packages. I have two boxes of books n my living room (will move them to dining room after box of boxes goes down. Now I have to swap the laundry.

Post a list of the top five favorite fics you’ve written, regardless of fandom or the reason you love them. This isn’t about the BEST things you’ve written, but what you LOVE most. Do it if'n you want to do it. <3

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Extreme Weather. House/Wilson friendship, PG. Number one head and shoulders over the top. I think it is probably one of the best things I've written, period: easily the best fic I've written: and I adore Antarctica so much it hurts.

Bollywood General Hospital. Kutner/13, NC-17. It's crack, but it's FUNNY crack, and it's a pairing you don't see much and it's almost believable in a crackaholic way.

ooh eee ooh ah ah. House/Cate Milton from "Frozen." NC-17. It's another unexpected pairing, and Cate was one of my favorite characters from Season Four (in large part because she was AWESOME and the ep featured Antarctica, even though it kicked off the Wilson/Amber subplot that REALLY STRESSED ME OUT about the end of last season.)

(I am very, very serious. I felt so horribly bad for House losing his best friend that I took about two thirds of a bottle of anti-anxiety pills during the last five episodes of the season, and I still haven't seen the first three eps of season five, and the first two will probably go unwatched. The whole arc made me worry myself sick (almost literally on quite a few occasions. Sometimes I'm too sensitive for my liking. No, I cannot be reasoned with. The greatest minds (okay, well, tallin, but he's married to me and has known me longer than any of you) are unable to budge me.))

dynamic ropes (sea change) House/Thirteen, PG-13. House/Thirteen is my second favorite pairing: I've written a bunch of fics with them, probably more with them than any other pairing except House/Wilson. I really like all of them, but this is one of my two favorites. Another one of the best things I've written.

Tie:

Quanta: Eight House/Wilson first kisses (1-8) House/Wilson, PG-13 (last one is soft R) I love these because I actually wrote them all just off the cuff one day after another for eight days and they actually turned out fabulously - I'm amazed I pulled it off, really.

Alphabet Soup: a relationship told through twenty-six microficlets. House/Thirteen, soft R. I have a growing obsession with microfiction. This is another set of small things that turned out fabulously.

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(The remaining of my top ten are: two's more fun (House/13, NC-17); refugee from the eightfold path/refugee AU (House/Wilson, PG-13; Guang/Jing, PG-13 (but they could be easily read as gen/friendship ficlets); The Taste of Tea (PG-13 friendship/slash (it's a kiss, nothing graphic in the least, and it's just a beautifully fluffy piece of fluff) and this untitled house/cthulhu ficlet set during the Amber/Wilson arc that I wrote on a dare one evening when I was feeling particularly hellish. A Taste of Memory, which was linked/podficced in the previous journal entry, is #11.)

And yes, I KNOW that was sneaky. <3 Just in case you wanted to know.

it was beautiful.
my boys are back.
i'm still crying. but in a happy way.

I ordered a copy of the dr. bronner documentary film today. I'd seen it some months back with seattlejo but I wanted a copy for myself - I went for the DVD + soap package (I prefer watching movies on my TV whenever possible, and I do like their soap, it was a pretty sweet deal) but they have the movie up for download for a fairly small fee ($8 I think? might be less). It's really worth the money if you like documentaries or even just quirky movies - he lived a fascinating life and he was indeed certifiable.

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Clickie from the most excellent purplewaxhand: IVR hacks. To get around those damnable voice recordings on phone systems. Good stuff.

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Slept until 11:30 today. Managed to straighten out apartment ... vaguely. Still have laundry to fold and boxes to take down to recycling area. I hate sleeping so late but the body insists on it. I feel like Pizpot Gargravarr from 'Restaurant at the End of the Universe' except my arguments never involve sex and fishing, they involve sleep versus having a damn life. Just - augh. It's starting to really get to me.

Also, still have not heard back from psychiatrist types. Really need to find someone soon. Do not want to go calling through all $HUGE_VAL psychiatrists in the Premera directory. Anyone have any recommendations? Seattle preferred but busable parts of the surrounding area might be okay for the right person.

I hate this. I really, really, really hate this. So much. The body and mind are unstable and at odds, I don't have enough time to do the things I want, pain and tiredness. Hate this.

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I'll be scarce tomorrow - still not watching House and trying to avoid spoilers. Will be scarce from messengers tonight for the same reason. I have it on reasonable authority that the sad storyline that's really bugging me will be at its conclusion with the new episode on the 14th of October, so I'll be back in the loop then. (brain is panic-level unstable about this. hate it. so much. there's a tiny little voice in the back of my mind that wants to say people are laughing at me, even though I know the ones that matter aren't. I will distract this voice, somehow. Possibly by throwing a movie and knitting project at it.

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clickies:

swedish magazine recalled when recipe poisons four people.

This is really neat: A monopoly board storage box. <3

cute and funny animals

huggable light.

Interview with House writer Doris Egan. True confession: I am still worried about Season Five (for god's sake DO NOT TELL ME SPOILERS I DO NOT WANT SPOILERS OKAY?) and I will undoubtedly be worried about season five until ... about season six. I do not do well with sadness, angst, strife, disrupted friendships or dramatic tension. I realize this means I should not watch or read anything more complicated than Dr. Seuss and that I probably suck, but that's the way I hang. (and yes, i know i wrote angst yesterday. *sigh* The brain, it is INCOMPREHENSIBLE. I have a consistent tic in my left hand and I keep falling asleep and seeing scarily vivid things that I start to reach for and then wake up.

Here. Click some things for me if you want to make me feel less pathetic. *sigh*

I wrote a drabble - "there is a season" (first in the set) - from the first line of one of queenzulu's fics. And then she wrote the sequel to the drabble "love is not a victory march" and it is AMAZING. OMG. GO READ.

Nicked from the most awesome and excellent queenzulu: "...it might be cool to start a meme where you list all the first lines of your fics and then people write drabbles in the comments with the same first line." And it was, indeed, cool. So. The way it goes is I give you a list of first lines from my fics, and you write completely different fics using my first lines. I've always before kept up the drabble bit of the meme, but this time around I don't care. Drabbles, ficlets, epics, anything goes.

Behind the cut are twenty-five first lines for your perusal. *love* Please post fics or at least linkies in comments. I love you all. <3

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dear self:

You do not get involved in fandom drama.

Because you know better.

Even if the oversight is both idiotic and big enough to drive a sizeable planet through.

Yes, even then.

Walk away clean, just ... walk away clean.

Love,

The part of your brain that likes peace and quiet