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Oct. 27th, 2008 12:38 pmliving room: mostly full of boxes. forty-two of them to be exact, thanks to ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
hithah, who is amazing.
child: home due to a rash (it is actually a rash this time). going to peds doc at 2:30 today.
me: been to the neuro and back. Have perscriptions for several vitamins and buspar. Long term neuro is talking about me being off most meds or at lower doses. Am bloody terrified of this concept, actually. i do not like the person i was before my meds, and i am having a lot of trouble reconciling myself to the idea that i will not become that person again. yeah, i know i have this backwards and that most people don't want meds. don't care. apparently i have awesome blood sugar and a massive vitamin d deficiency (something I likely have in common with most people in Seattle).
me: somewhat sad, and angry at internet trolls who seem to think acting like spoiled three year olds is appropriate because 'it's just the internet' as though it made their behavior less real or something. ashamed to know people like this.
me: wearing an eeg on my head. I look vaguely alien as my head is the wrong shape.
me: frustrated about writing, or more accurately lack thereof. want a vacation, or really just not to deal with life at all.
me: figured out i'm terrified of working because this means that my job will suck up every moment of my free time and i will never do anything fun ever again. must stop using chris as example. also would love to stop taking things to the far extremes but have been doing that all my life, am not sure how possible it is to stop such a thing.
hithah, who is amazing.child: home due to a rash (it is actually a rash this time). going to peds doc at 2:30 today.
me: been to the neuro and back. Have perscriptions for several vitamins and buspar. Long term neuro is talking about me being off most meds or at lower doses. Am bloody terrified of this concept, actually. i do not like the person i was before my meds, and i am having a lot of trouble reconciling myself to the idea that i will not become that person again. yeah, i know i have this backwards and that most people don't want meds. don't care. apparently i have awesome blood sugar and a massive vitamin d deficiency (something I likely have in common with most people in Seattle).
me: somewhat sad, and angry at internet trolls who seem to think acting like spoiled three year olds is appropriate because 'it's just the internet' as though it made their behavior less real or something. ashamed to know people like this.
me: wearing an eeg on my head. I look vaguely alien as my head is the wrong shape.
me: frustrated about writing, or more accurately lack thereof. want a vacation, or really just not to deal with life at all.
me: figured out i'm terrified of working because this means that my job will suck up every moment of my free time and i will never do anything fun ever again. must stop using chris as example. also would love to stop taking things to the far extremes but have been doing that all my life, am not sure how possible it is to stop such a thing.
