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As probably most of you know due to my ridiculous whining and bawling I'm really spooked and depressed about the season 5 intro. Largely because it looks to be at least moderately dramatic/angsty. I'm not a fan of that sort of thing for a reason.
Fandom is my escape from a lot of things: the fact that my pain is getting worse, the fact that I really don't know what I'm doing with myself now or really ever, the fact that I'm currently in a medical holding pattern for an unknown period of time, the kid is a black box as to what his future is and I really think I'm dropping into a pretty heavy depression at the moment. My escape is not really acting too escape-y.
(this is not said by any means to get attention. what i'm trying to say is that i'm not 100% sure i'm going to be watching tonight. i'm not joking; i really have been crying for days.)
But I still love all of you.
<3,
Phin
Fandom is my escape from a lot of things: the fact that my pain is getting worse, the fact that I really don't know what I'm doing with myself now or really ever, the fact that I'm currently in a medical holding pattern for an unknown period of time, the kid is a black box as to what his future is and I really think I'm dropping into a pretty heavy depression at the moment. My escape is not really acting too escape-y.
(this is not said by any means to get attention. what i'm trying to say is that i'm not 100% sure i'm going to be watching tonight. i'm not joking; i really have been crying for days.)
But I still love all of you.
<3,
Phin
